Posting an update on progress:

So I’m getting married in a few weeks and the only issue in our relationship ever has been my porn/masturbation addiction. Learned Mindgasm stuff over the past year or so but was still jerking off regularly between sessions and neglecting my fiancée. After really levelling up my skills to the point I could reliably HFDO consistently the desire to touch my cock has gone down a lot but my porn brain would still drive me to do it. Started experimenting with chastity play at around the same time to help with Mindgasm but my brain was still very addicted to PMO.

After a while abstaining and doing MG stuff whenever I’d have an ejaculatory orgasm I’d inevitably be left disappointed, but those mental pathways were still wired very strong. I did my longest ever streak in chastity/without cumming a couple months ago (2.5 weeks) and the intensity of my MG sessions went way up but I still was craving the elusive nut which turned into trying to force an HFWO as the duration of time without nutting continued.

I relapsed at the end of that time and I really realized that for me personally, the act of ejaculating makes me crave PMO even more – I’d often times relapse into heavy PMO after having sex with my SO. During that relapse time I actually vaguely managed to force an HFWO (edged myself and then pushed myself over the PONR with anal stimulation) and I realized that… it was just another disappointing penile orgasm.